My sweet Adelynn,
I love you more than words can say. I dreamed many nights about you throughout my whole life. When your daddy and I decided to make you, every negative test was a punch in the gut. I have endometriosis, so we didn't know if having you would even be possible. After a few months, finally the positive pregnancy test happened and "holy shit" were the first words out of my mouth. I couldn't believe it. You where there, already growing. I prayed for a little boy. I was so so so scared of having a little girl. You see, my mom and I had a rocky relationship all my life. We constantly were butting heads, and I was scared that if I had a little girl, I would do the same to you. Your Mammaw and I are closer now than we've ever been, and I owe that all to you, Adelynn. She loves you so much, and it makes my heart so happy to see the joy you bring her, and all your grandparents, for that matter. (more…)
When I was pregnant with my daughter, I redirected my business towards family sessions, maternity, newborns, and seniors. I was on such a high from being pregnant I was like, "forget weddings! Babies are where it's at! Oh look, cute kid! [sigh] faaaamily <3 <3 <3.. I spy a baby bump! Look Mike, that girl is pregnant too! Look at the cute baaayyybyyy ohmygoshbabyclothes!!!..." etc, etc... And so I got a new logo, a new website, had my baby, was on that "new mom" high and then reality hit me like a ton of bricks.
I remember getting a Snapchat from my friend Shane as I was walking out of the grocery store, something about him being late.. I snapped back a picture of a box of pregnancy tests because I had just realized I'd been late too.
As two pink lines slowly appeared, my first words were "holy s#!^."
I'm great with those types of things. When Mike got down on one knee the first thing I said was, "are you kidding me?!".. And the first time I saw Addie I somehow was able to mumble, "oh my God!" ;)
Today is March 17th. Almost a year since I found out I was pregnant.
Ok guys, before I start this post I want to acknowledge that I said before about posting sessions from the summer that I never got to share! I fully intended on doing that until I watched Katelyn James' Consistency Course and everything changed. I learned so much about editing that I never knew before that I could throw up. It was awesome. I want to re-edit everythiiiing but there simply isn't enough time in the day for that so I will pick up where I am currently and that would be Addie's 3 month update photos, so here we go...
We've made it a quarter of the way through "the first year". I'm going to high-five Michael when he gets home. We like to high-five when we accomplish big things.
I stood in the bathroom starring at my own reflection as tears ran down my cheeks. Mike already told me 3 times to get out of the living room because she could smell me and knew I was there. This bottle feeding thing is much harder than we thought. My plan of only nursing at first isn't working out so well, but I don't regret it. (more…)
In June, we had the wonderful opportunity to fly to Colorado! I was photographing a wedding for some of the sweetest people we've ever met :) We spent a week out there traveling around and I've already got my bags packed ready to move out there! We drove all over so we got to see SO much! We definitely could've used more time out there- there is SO much to see and do and some of the things on our "to do list" we weren't able to do because I was pregnant!! These photos are from our personal collection.. I finally got to edit them! They're cell phone photos, GoPro photos and photos from my camera... They're in no particular order! Enjoy :)
Colorado National Monument: (more…)
It was about 5pm when Mike came into the office and asked what I wanted for dinner. I was craving Longhorn for some reason and he agreed to go. With a sore lower back, I finished up whatever work I was doing and we were soon out the door. We enjoyed our meal, joking about how it might be our last night out together for a while.. Our last "date" for the next few months. As we were walking out to the car, my belly felt really hard and I grabbed Mike's hand for him to feel it. We laughed about the fact that I probably ate too much, which was nothing new to us at that point.
When we got home we went back to bed to watch some TV. I noticed that my stomach would get really hard and then felt like blubber. This started around 9pm and I felt no pain or discomfort. The clock continued to tick as I was restlessly laying in bed thinking of our baby and mentally preparing myself for labor. As you get closer to your due date, sleeping becomes difficult, so I was awake all night mindlessly scanning Facebook, Instagram, WebMD (haha), etc... (more…)
Two weeks. Two weeks! Aka, any day now!
I'm surprisingly feeling better now than I did thru this whole pregnancy! I'm so so excited to meet our baby girl, but I'm also SO sad that my first pregnancy is almost over. If I really get to thinking about it- about how every kick might be the last I feel from her, about how she isn't going to be safe in my womb for much longer, how I won't forever be able to protect her, I cry. I cry like a darned baby! But I am so so thankful for this wonderful gift of being able to carry a child. Those kicks, the hick-ups, it's all so amazing. And soon we get to meet her <3
I know our life is now just beginning... that I only thought the last 5 years of my life shared with Michael were the best. The rest of our lives is going to be the best of our lives. (more…)
We met September 2010 and were dating by October. We were in his old Jeep out near Mt. Rose, leaving Rutter's when he asked me "do you wanna be my girl?"
Two months later, we're texting on my way home from work -bad, I know! I was at a red light, honest! I'm at the light in Red Lion, headed up the hill past Sheetz and the car dealerships when he says, "I bet you'll be a beautiful mother."
(don't ask me how I remember all that, because I barely remember what I had to eat yesterday!)
4 months later, we're kissing in the kitchen of our 1st apartment.
That was 5 years ago.
We didn't really "try" or "plan". There was no tracking, no calculating. That's kind of how our relationship has always been, I guess. We just kind of fell for each other one night and hit the ground running. (more…)